An Explanation

I know I haven’t posted anything since the 21st, and there’s really no excuse for that. So I’ll just lay down the truth. It’s up to you how you take it. 

I hit a slump. Not just a “I don’t want to to my homework” or “I can do it later slump.” It was an “I am shit so why bother getting out of bed” slump. I’ve never really been officially diagnosed, but I know I have some form of depression. Possibly a few other mental illnesses, but that could be the hypochondriac in me. Normally it’s just a “I want today to be over” sort of thing, but this was one of the bad ones.

I felt it coming on while Adam (my boyfriend) was still up in Bemidji for my birthday, and I knew it would get a little worse when he had to leave. I wasn’t expecting to tumble head-first into a ditch.

I guess it kinda proves that a guy isn’t completely the cause or the cure to what goes on in my brain.

I’m going to spend the rest of this week focusingon catching up. I might not get a grade, but it’s better to have something up than nothing at all. I’ll also write up a few more recreational posts, and queue them to get posted over a span of a few days. Maybe even a few per day.

I may never completely climb out, but it’s better than staying in that depression.

(see what I did there?)

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About mollyjeans

Creative and Professional Writing Major, video gamer, nerd extraordinaire.
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2 Responses to An Explanation

  1. Sounds like maybe SAD (seasonal affective disorder) could be contributing too? It always hits harder during the winter months. My mom would know, she has it.

    That really sucks that you had to go through all of that. I’m hoping you get better soon, if only enough that you can keep going without wishing the whole day away.

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    • mollyjeans says:

      I’m pretty sure that SAD is part of it, but I also had a few really bad spells over the summer, so I think that there’s something more. It could even be as minor as a Vitamin D deficiency, which was the case that everybody went with back when I was in high school.

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