I know I haven’t posted anything since the 21st, and there’s really no excuse for that. So I’ll just lay down the truth. It’s up to you how you take it.
I hit a slump. Not just a “I don’t want to to my homework” or “I can do it later slump.” It was an “I am shit so why bother getting out of bed” slump. I’ve never really been officially diagnosed, but I know I have some form of depression. Possibly a few other mental illnesses, but that could be the hypochondriac in me. Normally it’s just a “I want today to be over” sort of thing, but this was one of the bad ones.
I felt it coming on while Adam (my boyfriend) was still up in Bemidji for my birthday, and I knew it would get a little worse when he had to leave. I wasn’t expecting to tumble head-first into a ditch.
I guess it kinda proves that a guy isn’t completely the cause or the cure to what goes on in my brain.
I’m going to spend the rest of this week focusingon catching up. I might not get a grade, but it’s better to have something up than nothing at all. I’ll also write up a few more recreational posts, and queue them to get posted over a span of a few days. Maybe even a few per day.
I may never completely climb out, but it’s better than staying in that depression.
(see what I did there?)